My Foreign World

My respones in an article with the title is "Barbara can't write"

            This is my first assignment in my second semester to write with using English language. I don’t know, I must be happy or not, because at this time I was feeling my skill about English still low. But I’m not going give up. I had chosen this department, so I must be responsible of this. I don’t want to make my family to be disappointed with what I had chosen. Okay keep spirit you can do it. I hope my essay can make you inspired. The last I say, Happy Reading.

            Last year when I was graduated from my senior high school, and then I continued my studies at Cirebon with department English education. Do you know? When I was child until now, I’m very hate English language lesson, because for me, it’s the most difficult lesson. Why I had chosen it, because I had no other choice. I had chosen it because I didn't accepted at the university that I want. When I was getting a failure, my old sisters asked me to continue my studies at Cirebon with department English education. They said to me that with majoring English education, you will get many job opportunities very much. After I heard about it, and then I chose it. I followed my advice’s old sisters.

            When I was in first course, l felt agonize. For me this is a foreign world. I must meet with English language every day, every times. Oh no, this is like a most nightmare that I ever got. Sometimes I often feel give up. Every day I never absent pray to my God so that he gives me many easiness. God ever made a promise to his servant that:

(QS. Al Insyirah 5-6)

“Verily, after every difficulty there is relief”

            That verse is always make me strong. I always try to never give up. Alhamdulillah, I was getting many the easiness. Someday my lecturer gave me a task. He asked me to read an article and then I must make a review and make a comparison with my life. The article made me so inspired. That article title is “Barbara Can’t Write”. The article tells about Barbara’s experience that can’t write. She is a perfectionist woman, she can’t write since her age is fifteen until seventeen years old. She is very good only at grammar lesson and spelling. She always feels panic, when she gets a task to make an essay. She never gives up. She always studies hard, although she has no idea what to write and how to write.

            Someday her teacher gives her a task to make an essay, but Barbara can’t do it. She is overwhelmed by the pressure to get it right. She feels so be pathetic when she got the task. The situations also ever happen to me. When my lecturer asked me to speak, listen, read, and write (all English skill), I feel very afraid and so agonize. I think Barbara is still better than me. She is still has ability in grammar lesson and spelling, while I can’t all the parts of English language lesson. I begin study all the parts of English language with seriously, when I course with department English education.

            I think what happen to Barbara is still better than me. She still has a mother and teachers who always help her, when she was getting problems in this lesson. While, I don’t like her, I think my life is very not easy. For examples are, at my university, I often feel difficulty when I was getting some problems in my task. I don’t know where I have to go to as soon as possible get easiness in my task. I think in library I will get some easiness, but not always like that. When I was reading, and then sometimes can’t understand what the book mean is? After that, where I have to go? All my old sisters are not expert in English language lesson. They are only expert in engineer lesson, and my mother also same with their. So, where I have to go?

            I’m same with Barbara, every day the fear is always imprison my words, so that I can’t improve my skill English easily. But don’t worry I include a perfectionist woman, when I do anything I must get the best result. Every day, I always try to seek some solutions to help my problem. The solutions are sometimes I meet with my seniors to ask about my problem, I buy some book, I open Google translate and dictionary, and the last I always follow all advices of my lecturers well. Yeah, it’s my ways that always I do to find the best solutions in English language lesson.

            I really admire Barbara. She can fight against something that she doesn’t like. She never gives up although she gets failure. She never bored to seek ways that will help her. She always tries to be the best in all aspects. So at the end, she successfully gets all her wishes. She can be a professional writer. It’s so amazing experience. I think she is one of my inspirations so that I will get all my dreams. Barbara’s experience made me realized that I was also able as successful as her, because in this world is nothing impossible If we are serious to make it happen.

            Yeah, I will be like her, although I feel so tired to fight against all my thinking fear in this lesson. This lesson will never make me be a fail person in life. May be for this time, this lesson is still like my foreign world. But I believe this condition will not run long. I will always study hard so that I can change my foreign world become my passion world. With the only capital are support from my family, all easiness from my God, and my hard effort. I do believe I will get my passion world.

Mr. Albert Einstein also ever said that:

 "Success consists of 1% talent and 99% hard work"

        So keep be fighting Ria Nuralawiyah to get your passion world. Your passion world is to be a professional educator in English language lesson. Keep dreaming and reaching. Your passion world was waiting you to as soon as possible you get it right.

My conclusion is like Mr.Lala ever said that:

"Craftsmanship - Inspired - Process"